One of those nights

So, here I am at 12:22 a.m. and I can't sleep. It's awesome. Actually, I haven't been sleeping very well recently, and really, I should, since I'm at work all day and then doing homework all night long. I've dealt with insomnia for quite some time now, but I've never really done anything about it, and about once a month, I have a night where I don't sleep at all (or I fall asleep on the couch watching the same infomercial for the third time at 4 in the morning) and then go about my day like nothing happened. It's not a lot of fun and I could really use the sleep, but the last time I took an Ambien, I slept through my alarm and woke up an hour late. I usually have these nights because something is on my brain, but I really don't have much to think about right now. I suppose it could be the fact that my boss told me that he wanted to give me my review, go over an action plan (how corporate), and talk to me about one other thing, but he didn't specify what the "one other thing" was, so it probably means I'm in trouble. I've been a bit preoccupied with that thought all day today, but it is enough to ruin a perfectly good night of sleep? It shouldn't be! Should I really be that concerned with the Wells Fargo wagon and whether or not I'm on it? Really-I'd be okay getting off that wagon and taking a pit stop! Don't wait up for me! I need a vacation.

On another note, a friend got baptized this past Easter Sunday (how appropriate) and a few girls got the opportunity to write and read some blessings in front of our conservative congregation. Not only was I honored that she asked us to write something for her, I was quite moved at the fact that we got to stand in front of people on a Sunday morning, microphone in hand, and say something. I hope that my daughter will have that sort of opportunity (if she wants it) and will not have to be told that she can't do something just because she's a woman. I do understand tradition and have complete respect for people that believe in those conservative traditions/beliefs that don't allow women to do as much as some women would like to do in our church, but I don't want to hold my daughter back just because she's a girl. I want her to have an open door to everything and for her to be able to be/do/think whatever she darn well pleases (within whatever boundaries I set for her mind you). I hope that she can have some female role models that she can look up to and that she can be proud of her feminism. Now, I don't necessarily mean that she needs to go burn her bra or anything, but I hope that one day she can be a proud female and that she can be proud of me for being one for her. And maybe one day, I will let her wear pink...